CABG Part 3

16th December

8 : 00 am


                   until...unitl I removed the quilt from his face to wake him up. With a placid smile I wished him goodmorning but his pale face showed signs that something was wrong. Mom told me about he telling her , his inability to get up that morning ,might be because of excess work and travelling exertion. Hence Mom took the decision to postpone our trip to the evening and see the physician. He drove himself to our family doctor and after all the blood reports and analysis nothing unusual came. Puzzled by the good reports doctor advised father to see his cardiologist at once regarding the condition of his breathlessness at few steps only.

                  From there he went to see his doctor. She got his ECG(electrocardiagram) done and the whole case was solved. He was under engina attack. Worst part about heart attacks is  they can be silent too!He had had engina pain attaack some 7 years back but with controlled diet and regular intake of medicines with precautions towards having a healthy life, no other problems had occured til now but now the inevitable condition was there......CABG ( Cardiac Artery Bypass Grafting surgery).

CABG Part 2

PART 2

16th December
6 : 30 am


        I started my day with a smile and many plans in my mind as I was going to one of my childhood friend's Birthday party tonight but before that I would be attending my trainig at BEL. It was meant to be a very hectic and alluring day at the training cell as we were to attend the Radar Department today. Mother woke me up. She had been working since 5 in the morning as our maid was on leave on account of illness of her youngest son.

     The chill had begun to show it's darn will of more chilly days in future but mother was working in water washing utensils early morning and waking me up after completing all the household chores.I protested, complaining to had me help her with work but all she said was " Koi baat nahi, maine sab kar liya" ( It's okay, I have completed) with a smile as serene as one can see early morning. I thought mom has made my day but didnt see the calmness of the environment indicating the arrival of the deadly storm.

        

    I have always wondered from where I could have cultivated the divine calmness, being a shortempered child once but this morning Ma's smile gave me all the answers. "Hurry up,your dad isn't feeling well and has asked us to get ready so you better hurry up", and instantly I jumped out of my bed went to my parents room to see my father but found him sleeping hence I straightaway headed myself to the bathroom and was ready in half an hour. Helped in making breakfast,packing my father's salad and lunch pack as he had just recovered from yellow fever case which had gone a little bad which meant only home made food to be devoured. Then moving on to her daily prayer course mother asked me to make Dad ready himself for our trip to his colleague and my friends house, I was eagerly waiting to handover her her gifts that I had got for her just a day before in the evening only. I had collected a book and a box of choclates for her, it being a special day for her as well as all of us as we all, the group of 5 familes.would be meeting after a long time with ample time to chat and relax. Everything was so much fun until.....

CABG Part 1

PART 1

16th December,


       I was happy. Finally I was a trainee at a place where I could ever imagine to be. BEL, Bharat Electronics, Paradise for electronics engineers. Being an introvert I was frightened as to who all I shall meet but then came a very sweet girl with her name being very very familiar in my life, Surabhi and surprisingly my batchmate, a friend of friend ! I was thoroughly enjoying being in a PSU with so lively friends. I had plans of totally changing myself and I was working hard on it but then nobody knows whats next in your life. I thought finally I had control over things but didn't know my life was about to take such a 180 degree turn that even living my life would appear lethargic to me,I being very lively to love life the way it comes !

Thought Of The Day !

I Can't Speak .

I still miss you,
your adorable pearl like eyes
Staring at me.
I still miss you,
your serene smile,
Making up my every violet day.
I wish you were here with me today
But I can’t make my parents understand this
Not because that they won't listen to
But because
I Can’t Speak.
           

I still miss you,
You lying on the bed besides me
I still miss you,
Your actions completing my day
I miss you more and more everyday
But I can't make my friends understand this
Not because they won't understand
but because

I Can't Speak.

I still miss
the velvety touch of your hands
Me kissing you,
And you relishing it .
The cozy warmth
of taking you in my arms.
Immense  joy in feeding ,                      
 All that you want.
Dressing you up                                
Like a precious jewel of my life.
I am now simply

Thinking about you all the time.  

But I can’t make
anyone in this world see my agony
not because
that they cant
feel,see,                                          
sense or understand it
but because
I Can’t Speak..