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Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Thought Of The Day !

Saturday, September 4, 2010

I Can't Speak .

I still miss you,
your adorable pearl like eyes
Staring at me.
I still miss you,
your serene smile,
Making up my every violet day.
I wish you were here with me today
But I can’t make my parents understand this
Not because that they won't listen to
But because
I Can’t Speak.

I still miss you,
You lying on the bed besides me
I still miss you,
Your actions completing my day
I miss you more and more everyday
But I can't make my friends understand this
Not because they won't understand
but because
I Can't Speak.

I still miss
the velvety touch of your hands
Me kissing you,
And you relishing it .
The cozy warmth
of taking you in my arms.
Immense  joy in feeding ,                      
 All that you want.
Dressing you up                                
Like a precious jewel of my life.
I am now simply
Thinking about you all the time.  
But I can’t make
anyone in this world see my agony
not because
that they cant
sense or understand it
but because
I Can’t Speak..

Saturday, August 28, 2010

Why I Like Twilight ....!

         "Throughout the vast shadowy world of ghosts and demons there is no figure so terrible,no figure so dreaded and abhored, yet dight with such fearful fascination, as the vampire, who is himself neither ghost nor demon, but yet who partakes the dark natures and possesses the mysterious and terrible qualities of both" - Rev.Montague Summers.

When you can live forever,what do you live for
         The above reference from Twilight can be taken as an instance as to how vampires are ought to be looked upon, as creatures in beastly form but not actually the performers of the beastly things! Stephenie Meyer has done a remarkable job in bringing out a new definition of vampires by adding extra fragrance to the divine scent of love by narrating out an extraordinarily ordinary love story between a human and a vampire.All a vampire quests for,through out it's scornful life,is to get the perfect Human to cling upon but when Edward,the main heroic vampire figure of Twilight Saga,discovers his personal brand of heroine, Bella,a simple girl from Phoenix,Arizona,the author comes up with,"so the lion fells in love with the lamb"!
 The irrevocable relationship knitted by the female writer brings out her fanatic power of imagining such a peculiar and lovely piece of work.
The Twilight saga contains The New Moon, The Eclipse and the Breaking Dawn with Twilight being the first in the series.Each part precede with the relations of the the animal hunters,the Cullen clan with other blood seeking vampires and the werewolves living disguising themselves as the commoners along with the consequences due to the intimate love story of Edward and Bella.Overall look of the series may not give a feeling of an ascetic romantic novel but the inside crusts of the books hold unexplainable lustrous pieces of love bond between a problem seeking girl and a perfect for everything vampire,Edward ,world's best predator.

          The story actually revolves around some myths and legends prevailing in the city of Forks, that the city has been home for some friendly vampires along with their foes,werewolves,also living among the commoners,leading a normal life.Story begins with Isabella alias Bella moving to live with the Charlie, Police Chief swan of Forks,after her mother Renee decides to move along with her new baseball player
Emett,Rosalie,Alice and Jasper (left to right)
 boyfriend,Phil.Bella gets herself registered at the towns high school,Forks High School and get friends with the new girl admirers,Eric and Mike and the always prattling girl,Jessica and the placid girl Angela.And then there were the most talkative students of Forks High School,Emmett Cullen and Rosalie Hale,Alice Cullen and Jasper Hale,making up wonderful pairs and Edward Cullen still waiting for his perfect match,the adopted and foster children of Dr. Carlisle Cullen and Esme Cullen.

They were always together,like together together and lived outside Forks.Their appearances and being distance from everyone were obvious reasons hinting at something strange about them but the event of Edward saving Bella from being crushed under a truck driven by an impassive student,Tyler brings it out to Bella as well as the readers that the Cullen's were just not simple people but something more so mysterious yet to be discovered!Cullen's disappearance on the bright sunny day,the legends about the cold ones told by Jacob Black,pale skinned Cullen's sitting at the lunch tables but not eating anything,strong and fast rescue act of Edward protecting Bella,eyes that shift color,cold touch of Edward were enough reasons to make up Bella to walk up-to Edward and confront him being a Vampire!And this is the point where the sweet love story continues with many ups and downs separating the lovers but uniting them again never to be separated.

        The best part about Edward is his being a vampire and his plausible yet enigmatic feelings en-capturing Bella to the allure of his love.Bella has no idea how torment his blood thirsting part can get but she trust him irrespective of the known truth that her blood is all that can quench his thirst.Vampires can't have the intake of
normal human food but Edward eats a slice of Pizza for the sake of curbing the curiosity of his love knowing the fact that all he tasted meant dirt to him but the dirt won the everlasting faith of Bella that she trusts her life when at the end of the novel Edward is asked by Carlisle to sip venom out of Bella's nerves.
Here we get a hint of the degree of Edward's love for Bella ,as how hard it would have been for an animal hunter and a blood sucker,not anymore,however ,to eat grass' products and stop sucking the blood  when given a viable chance to sip out every drop of blood.They both are forbidden to be in love,yet Edward stubbornly makes Bella to believe that he loves her more than what she feels for him,depicting the true theme to be the first condition to be in Love!

    It's strange how someone can love someone so much but yes even if you haven't met your perfect alias you cant prejudice that true love doesn't exists anymore.Absence of evidence doesn't imply evidence of absence!True love always finds its path no matter what all difficulties life imprints in the course and no matter  what all tricks destiny tries playing with the souls but love finally wins over all evils.It's quite amusing to think of a love story packing a normal human soul and a vampire but when seen through the eyes of Stephenie, it really looks plausible for such kinda story to be true,although the whole concept of vampires hasn't been approved by the society but ignoring the mere fact of existence of vampires if we concern ourselves with the plot given by the author ,its quite scintillating ,to see a normal love story through the glasses of the aberrant
world and the theories prevailing.You love someone so much that you try protecting that person from everything ,by being  with her even knowing that the greatest danger to her is none other that you,yourself! Edward fears he may ever lose control of himself with Bella but it's Bella's faith in him and his long years practice to control his human blood thirst that they both are simply so much in love with each other that they are,inseparable,to be precise.
  You do everything to make the other one comfortable ,simply everything because it's this placid smile on the other ones face that makes your day.Twilight doesn't comes touting the aspects as to how to love someone but it surely does reveals how to truly love someone, with no new tactic but being your natural self,giving your soul to the other one and being the other one's reason to smile.And this all what makes Twilight so special to me.I have been through many love stories ,novels,articles quoting to be from real life experiences but
nothing has ever struck my mind more than this agonized love story of Edward and Bella.In general,those three words,some acts of making love,planning love trips,deciphering the likes and dislikes and problems concerning home and society and the heroic end to all the above stated problems is what is usually displayed in the books claiming to be Love stories but none of them explains that love can build just with a keen look to talk but not allowed to talk,desire to be with the other one but forbidden to even think about that,want to laugh and  hang out with your love but the fear of hurting that person keeps you away.All these things are what makes Twilight special for me

.Edward and Bella are just no simple couple but a great couple because their compassionate love just doesn't died Edward being a vampire and Bella being a Human,but it continued with not only the vampire family accepting the human but also Bella trying her level best to make her love acceptable to her family as well as the werewolves,Jacob Black and Sam,the enemies of vampires.Its really inspiring how they both manage to create the poise after every trouble that shows up when it was least expected.But as said Love wins over all evils.

Sometime back someone was stating Twilight to be a mere copy of another vampire series by L.J.Smith, The Vampire Diaries,a very twisted vampire love story with all the necessary ingredients of making a big novel hit,including love,sex,and emotional drama of friends ,brother sister as well as witches and wolves adding the
extra spice to formulate the famous American T.V.series to be anticipated watched out by almost every teenager.Both the novels may have been build on the common point of vampires but they are totally different when it comes to the main plot as well as the representation of the real world ant their world,vampires' one,and this what I refer to be the main thing clearly separating the two novels far apart from being a mere copy or even one being inspired from the other.The Vampire Diaries involves two love struck brothers living in the present age with one elder brother making out troublesome for his younger brother loving a girl which looks like a girl named Catherine,seem out to be the vampire who transfigured both of them into vampires some 150 years ago.Now they both are back to know all the possibilities as to why this resemblance has taken place after 150 years in the same city where Catherine and both of the Salvatore brothers lived.
Twilight while brings out the sweet face of Love along with the ups and downs as a matter of consequence of a vampire falling for a human girl,The vampire Diaries brings out the Love story twined between lust,greed,hatred and last but not the least ,all the bad creatures realizing they all have some good part left in them ,it's just they have to figure out how to make that thing come out of their dark hearts.I myself have been through both the series and I feel just like no two humans share the same DNA or the same fingerprints ,but can have some common factors being the children from the same family,The Vampire Diaries and Twilight too doesnt share or can be seen as a copy of the other as that would only be an insult and nothing else but U do agree that they both have the same element which mesmerizes and allures one and all ,that is,the Vampires!

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Another Two States - PART - 3

           College was not so dull after all,as narrated by some intellectuals,for engineering nerds,constituting up big projects to complete,weary laboratory works to be accomplished and frightful lecturers giving students
 nightmares about the monthly scheduled test papers with an obligation to beautify each paper with good grades so as to be a graceful engineer, at the end of four years.The allure of vogue fashion statements showcased by a handful of girls, considered to be eye candies by some,to confess,by all,prattled talks in the cafeteria,guys fulfilling the tall,dark, handsome criteria seemed good enough reasons to dazzle the new boys and girls and also our very own girl from the daily course of studies,at least for a certain era of time,known as the freshers month.

           Okay so now here at ITS we had a tradition ,for one whole month,you got to follow ,the not so convincing orders of the seniors,got to say, act, talk, walk,think, dream, everything just every little thing was to be done according to the vogue ,decided by the seniors.Obey the rules,get rewarded,disobey the rules,you will never forget the freshers month.The rules and instructions were simple,as everything in the world seems to be, in first,but remember the deeper you go the hotter the earth crust gets!and that's what freshers month was like,unless you are God's special child like Tiya,having a cousin brother,Electrical department,in 4th year,possessing a quite impressive resume to scare away the awful souls to keep their eyes off her ,but only her.Tiya had a vigorous fight ,as to why she ,Namita ,wasn't granted the official badge to roam around freely,being her roommate,but an opportunity to overpower someone's soul completely doesn't seemed like a candy to loose so easily for the big guys.The official freshers month existed too,however a bit too vague to be excited about, but the unofficial one,the most precarious one, was something one should really really be careful about to be at peace for the rest of their Engineering life.According to the rule book the month following the orientation ceremony was chosen to be the freshers month,by the college as well as the seniors, unbiased apparently.It wasn't the official one,that the students were waiting to begin ,it was how their seniors were gonna scratch their heads to take total control of the first year students.Certain dressing codes along with certain guidelines to behave were announced,to be followed by each and every student without any obligations and queries,in every block where any fresher resided.Things came out to be nightmare for guys as they were supposed to keep their eyes down for the senior ladies and mouth shut for the younger ones,in short,no talking with any female soul was allowed.There was no point opposing it hence everybody just surrendered to the other demands too like ,hair ,to be oiled a way too properly,full sleeves white shirt and brown pants,on all working days with big, I repeat big leather shoes!For girls,no jeans,as you might have guessed, but the suits were supposed to be trendy and not just the usual ones with proper dupattas and all.The hairdo part was supposed to be like boys accompanied by two neat ponytails.Girls were somewhat little lucky,don't ya feel so!After all girls are girls!The whole life guys keep thriving to be with the best girl they might ever know so I guess that explains all!

 Namita was all set to go for her second day hoping that things will go in a a similar fashion as that of yesterdays wary day.With her fingers crossed and eyes searching a friendly face,she entered the class and saw a place on the second last bench of the first row empty.Without wasting a second, she acquired that place and the next moment found her new bench mates for the day."Hello",said the one sitting next to Namita."Hi",said Namita inspecting and realizing her to be quite pretty and full of life to talk to."My name is Barkha and I am from delhi and  you are from..?",said the girl without a pause."I am from ....."."Oh okay that's a nice place .I have been to it.So friends?And by the way this is my friend and from now yours too, Himani"."Hi ,I am Himani",said the third girl on the bench ,finally."Hi.."and before Namita could complete her words entered their lecturer with their Head of Electronics and communication department."Hello students ,please be seated I am here for just a few welcoming words to be shared.Well,from now onwards you are a part of this institution for the next four years and it depends on you, whether you get promotion or demotion from your current educational and personal qualifications and standards during the tenure of the next four years.The college and the faculties will help you out in all the ways possible and to wrap up the whole thing,at the end,I would expect that you all will respect the institutions rules and would abide by them proving to be a good individuals."."Thank you sir,"said the male lecturer accompanying the HOD and continued,"I am your class in charge and would take your main subject communication theory,being first year you will only be...So starting with the main topic..."and hence the lecturer hummed about something but Namita's mind was already preoccupied to keep a track of what was being taught in the class.Secondly the freshers month had begun so from tomorrow all the set of rules were to be followed,happily or unhappily,that was left for the freshers to decide.

 Why is that life changes its face so quickly that its too hard sometimes ,or always to be at pace with it's unclear enigmatic path.Why is is that relations change their form so fast ,without leaving any space to adjust or to get accustomed to the new pattern.And why is that the new changes are not always so warm and welcoming.During the whole day, all that kept Namita away from studies was,why was it that today Sakshi and Vipsa were not sitting with her?Is she so dull?..that it takes only a day for her Grey looks to avert people from her?What's wrong with her?Why she can't be more than polite and understanding towards human nature?Well,these thoughts might be boring or may look a bit awkward or present an exaggerating emotion donned by Namita but for her,the only thing she was concerned about,more than her studies, was why she was unable to make friends on the second day even!During the lunch hours too she was with her new colleagues.All the way, back and forth from class to mess, she kept on thinking why all of a sudden this change had occurred.But she was helpless and thought to give it a deep thought at night,soaked into tears as tears were her,doubtless best friend.After finishing all the chores she rushed to her room.
 Tiya had already gone for the volleyball practice hence it was just the perfect time for her to be in her grey form.She straight away went to bed,lying upside down on her stomach,throwing the bag away from herself,depicting her throwing skills,and kept on thinking about the class' happenings till she fell asleep.All she dream of was about she being again with Sakshi and Vipsa clearly showing how hard it was for her to make new relations.The dream would have continued but guess someone wasn't in a mood to let her unconscious mind to take more control of her for the moment.Her phone was ringing.She vaguely searched for it and discovered it finally on some deep edge of the bed and as she pressed the answer key ,heard somebody knocking at the door."Hello..",she somehow managed to attend the door as well as her phone at the same time.Tiya was standing ,imaptiently to get in,all soaked in sweat.But Before she could open her mouth Namita made herself busy in the phone."Hey..what a pleasant surprise.I wasn't expecting a call from you at this hour of the day.Anyways..How ya doing..?",Namita looked too excited to Tiya to guess that somebody from home was on the other side."OH..Okay..cya then.Bye",the call ended,was very short to be precise but the smile it gave, everlasted on Namita's face."So Tiya how was your today's volleballsession?",the question came as a surprise for Tiya from Namita, anywasy we know Tiya loves to narrate every little thing that had happened and hence all she was concerned with ,she had been offered the chance to speak,finally and both the roomies spent a nice time that evening.

            And so the night marks the end of the third part of the story.But certain new theories have emerged which do need an explanation!Why were Vipsa and Sakshi not sitting with Namita today?Does she really need to be avoided so early?Who was on the other side of the call?and the million dollar question..what's so important in the freshers party that it is going take over almost two next parts!Well to find out the answers,hope you know what to do!Keep reading.Adios.


Thursday, June 3, 2010

Is Life Always Worth Living?

        Neither am I sadist nor a depressed soul to come up with such a weird topic to write on!
 I too want to be happy, wish to narrate about the happy times I have always imagine to have and to come up with the the Hollywood movies ending titles -live happily ever after but I don't know why I always end up in everlasting tears, unbearable pain and unforgettable dreading memories.I have tried a lot investigate the reason behind such a miserable condition of my life but have been a sore loser all the times but I won't sit still until and unless I find the reason for the flaws,my smile possess,misery,my life and destiny is into and the unlucky allure ,attracting me into precarious situations,I fall into,knowingly or unknowingly !

          Life is like a roller coaster ride,full of unpredictable ups and downs,it's like a road ,sometimes smooth sometimes rough.
 To assume it will always run according to our wishes, is simply foolishness but to lose all hopes for it to at-least mold according to our desires is being more foolish.Life,of-course isn't a piece of cake but then it ain't rocket's science either.Every coin has two faces,both being so indifferent yet constituting up the identity of the coin and so is with life.If it's showing you its bare fangs today then one should wait for the cosy hug that is sure to just got to be patient for the right moment to come.Being happy isn't impossible! As all it requires is a pair of 5 letter words,"BEING HAPPY".Life without a purpose is a journey without a destination.With no aim in life,no boundaries to mention your needs,no limitations on your desires and no parameter for your gratification, one can never be happy.


         Sometimes in life the degree of hardships extend to the effect that everything seems to be coming to an end.Hopes,wishes,faith and even desire to live decays.The pitiful and only condition of living this life is , no matter what you face,you got to face.Troubles don't knock seeking your society status or your mental status,it just strikes.Welcome them with a smile or depression ,is your choice.At times the whole concept of living,doing things even smiling seems to be futile but the truth doesn't goes like that my friend.Life may seem to be the painful experience but with pain comes relief and hope.
Hope to live life in a much better way,be happy by doing good to others,peace by appreciating others qualities.It's just a matter of interpretting things from a optimistic perspective.pessism - optism, negativity - positivity, darkness - brightness etc are some antonym pairs which start with negative words but end with positive words.

                 Life has been the greatest virtue ever known to human race,the greatest gift by God which comes in so many colourful packages, yet all that we see,are the grey shades, it holds !But the question is WHY? Why we humans leave no stone unturned to corrupt God's Angelic plans, and ourselves fall, knowingly all the time, into the pit of self pity, yet blame God,destiny, circumstances for all the frightful happenings in our lives.
 A student fails a test, blame goes on God, boy breaks up with a girl, God is questioned, failure in business or job, God is held responsible, why? Until when are we going to simply escape the truth,the truth that we, ourselves are solely responsible for whatsoever happens with us.Destiny do plays a role in certain way but the major part is only and always because of our own past or future planned actions.Putting blame on others won't do anything but simply introduce agony,depression and emptiness in life.Who is it that we are fooling by doing so?Who?None but us,our self!God helps those who help themselves,old but very true.So why not help our own-selves?Why be shy or ignorant of it?Help is always available to those who ask , but have to be careful what you ask for.Asking for things which you are yet not mature enough to receive or capable of attaining is something which only lead you to the gray shades of life.

Ever thought how human race came into existence?How God came upon with an idea to create man and woman and initiate the whole life cycle?Well yes, it's too complicated to search every basic detail because google still has certain questions yet to be answered but ever thought how we get a new day everyday and as to who has the control of all the living and non living matter known to us.Sometimes the existence of some superpower is too prominent to neglect but do we science geeks believe all that that fails to make an inverted image on our retina?Do we?Then why not believe in the Supreme Power's existince?I am not touting any religion or God but to taste the real ultimate peace of mind, one should learn to move on from the hollow materialistic things of the world.

We all wish to be happy but one cannot be happy all the time !Even the thought of being happy every moment induces a sense of unhapiness in our mind.But what actually is the element for happiness? Money? Love? Power?Fame?Beauty?What..?What is it that takes someone to smile.A real smile, excluding any sadness involved in any deep dark corner of the pulpating heart! Many spend their whole life searching for the real thing but many acclaim to achieve it,surprisingly, at a very timid stage of life.Many cases of sucide are reported daily.Talking on moral basis, if you can't give anything, don't even expect to get anything and if you can't help out with the way you have made your life then you have no right to take it either ! Because your life isn't only belongs to the people who gave you your life,your parents,it belongs to the people who make your life,your siblings,friends,strangers etc.So don't ever think of snatching the beutiful life given by others to you from them or God will never forgive you !

Some people have all the world's comforts yet they complain to be unhappy and claim to be depressed! Is it because till now no one has been able to invent a machine that measures the degree for yourpain, anguish and happiness? People allow themselves the luxury of being mad when they are in a position to do so !

When one can be happy then why not be it?God loves us.Yes he does.We say he gives us troubles but why don't we see the solutions he provides with them?Why only the darker side of the story is most strikingly noticed and the subtle part passes away like an impasse.Spirituality may be sought as one solution for seeking inner minds peace.Having an ideal or idol,to worship infuses divine love in life.God created us and hence he helps us in our very own existence too.All we need is to trust him.Trust in his divine powers,thank him for all the kindness shown and gratitude pondered upon.Why human becomes so adamant that he refuses to belive in someone above him,above the world,above all.Why?Why can't we peacefully follow some orders which we know are for own benefit.God loves us and we should reciprocate his love too.

                 To sum up,hapiness requires worlds most basic and very easily available ingredients.Find someone with whom you can share your thoughts,your troubles,your happiness and your own self.Find someone whom you can count upon ,irrespective of the period going in your life,happy or sad.Try making someone happy, helping someone,calming one's worries,being besides someone at hard times and hapiness will come to you.Laughter is the best medicine.Live,Laugh, make your surrounidgs and world a better place to live in. Troubles won't leave but atleast facing them with a smile would lessen their pain .Life is definately a thing to rejoice,a thing to live with dignity and make the people realize this too.Hence I have found the answer,

                           "Life is certainly worth living".


Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Another Two States PART - 2

                  Love.Love isn't about being with someone 24X7 ,it's thinking about the other one 24X7.Hanging out,roaming around ,talking,hugging,kissing..all these things are just garnish while the main ingredients ,for the dish of Love to be delicious are faith,respect and trust for the other soul.Love doesn't demands expensive gifts,it wants to hear expensive words,it doesn't requires a big bank balance,it needs only a big soothing smile,Love doesn't asks for a luxurious apartment or four wheeler,it only needs warm cosy arms,and love just doesn't mean to be with each other 24X7,it means to be a part of the other even when that other part isn't around!Love should come naturally and not forcibly,should be stable to stay forever.Being with someone,promising life things but then breaking up at the end after just doesn't defines Love...rather it's injustice to the divine word LOVE!So please don't fake out things if you don't know what actually it is all about!as we all should remember that someone somewhere is do keeping a track of all our deeds to reward or punish us accordingly later!

               Coming back to the story.... With a neat attire donned on, Namita was headed to the college,lost in her own world, as usual,when suddenly from behind she heard someone calling out her name, outloud."Namita..Namita wait..".The voice grew much stronger with Namita finally stopping when she realized it was her roommate,Tiya.

               Tiya,nice bubbly girl,zealot for life,enigmatic yet fanatic for everything whether it being studies, playing pranks with the teachers or just simply being herself.She was ,one can say,one of her kind.She was frank,quick,witty yet intelligently stupid and above all knew how to handle depressed souls like Namita!And not to forgot to mention her speaking skills..well you will come to know about this quality of hers as you go on reading!She was from Rajasthan and was a typical adamant kinda girl when it came to arguments about her being from such a dry place,because she moreover looked like a punjabi,and she literally hated being called punjabi,reason being she hated the punjabi cultural,God knows why!To conclude about Tiya,she was a nice,sweet,humble,caring, talkative or let's say ,in short had simple attitude,thinking and beliefs opposite to that what were possessed by Namita.Tiya was a biotech student.

               "Wait Namita,..Gosh..I have been calling your name like from some five minutes now!Where were you lost?.. or, wait were you ignoring me?huh?Well if you admit to the first then it's okay,I can believe that I wasn't loud enough to be noticed but if you are going for the second one then I won't let you go so easy.. because I am not such a dull thing to be ignored, especially by you!So it's better you admit that you heard me just now!..because Tiya really.."."Okay okay Tiya I opt for the first one... so what's the matter?"."You forgot your ID Card honey,the most and the only important thing a college student should always possess other than good looks,intelligence and a witty nature to impress people around you in the first look!"."Okay ,okay I got it.Come-on let's go or the surrounding people will conclude both of us to be a fool while you aren't and then I don't want another lecture from you.(giggle)!"."OH my goodness..You can laugh too?I didn't know that..!.really..but ". "Okay now don't exaggerate it..come on let's go!".This was the first time Namita had smiled since her parents had left.

             Entering the classroom with a courageous heart was not a candyfloss eating for Namita but then she finally gathered all her body,mind and soul,and with broadened shoulders and a calm smile accompanying her lips,went straight into the lecture hall.With an eagle's eye she caught the third bench in the second row to be empty with two sweet looking talkative girls already seated with third place empty as if they already knew of her arrival.She walked to the bench and finally made her presence alive,"Hello,I am Namita from ".Both the girls turned to her with a wry look,as if a couple has been intruded by an uninvited friend,"from.. "Hello..I am Sakshi",said the girl with the bob cut,sitting in the extreme most corner."Hello,I am Vipsa",prattled the other.The one with the bob cut looked a bit irritated by the Namita's invasion in their territory while Sakshi cheerfully started chirping.Namita analyzed the beautiful tone with which she was greeted and had no idea that these two were made to be her best mates for life.Sakshi had just started to narrate about herself when the professor made a winning walk to the classroom."Good morning my friends,it's so nice so see the full strength of the class,at least on the first day,and I should not lie ,but I hope you people will respect the 75% mandatory attendance requirement by the college to be eligible for the university examinations as your first preference to be there in the classes rather than doing other stuffs like, the miss at the last bench, can you please stop talking as I am already in the class and in my class it's me,who gets the authority to open his mouth and not the students unless I feel it necessary for them to do so.!"The electrical professor continued his so much obsessed with himself speech for another 45 minutes,enlightening the weak students with the backlog he had gifted to our seniors and dreading the bright students not to do any work of flattery for his subject."So students,"continued the middle aged guy walking hastily towards the door,"I think I have made my things crystal clear and hence I will see you tomorrow."Namita had been a good listener ,always,natural for a gloomy soul,but today she allowed the lecturer to drone.At lunch Namita came to know that Vipsa was from Delhi and Sakshi had just moved to Delhi from Himachal Pradesh."So how is India's capital like?",asked Namita in a vague voice eating her chapati in the mess,unwillingly of-course as the mess food possessed only an interesting look but no taste."You have never been to Delhi?,the startled voice of Sakshi was loud enough to draw the attention of the fellow mates. "NO",answered Namita cringed to her seat ,more firmly now."That's okay even I myself have been to Delhi only twice",said Vipsa in a serene manner as to sooth the dreadful look of Sakshi.All three of them shared some more official information from their hometowns best things to the grades they secured in their higher classes till they heard the bell indicating that now they got to return to their respective places in the newly named, torture hall by Vipsa.In some 10 minutes Namita was again sitting besides Vipsa with a chemistry lecturer doodling something on the whiteboard but her wanderlust heart kept her busy till she was summoned by the madam to stand up and explain what she wasn't paying heed to."So the girl in the purple,yes, you dear",said the teacher pointing towards Namita," the class would feel privileged to listen to your explanation about the carbon cycle,I was just explaining".It was not the scary look, the teacher possessed which made Namita nervous but her dazzled look which made her hesitant to speak anything but to stand still with head bent down,ashamed of her vague presence in the class."Okay being your first class I can excuse this offense of yours, towards the subject, but you better be careful from now onwards",the words came out of the lecturer's mouth as if she never thought how gruff some alphabets joined together to frame sentences like these can be to some poor souls like her.And so somehow after finishing all the seven lectures for the day ,still wondering why she had joined engineering,she bid adieu to her new friends Sakshi and Vipsa,started sauntering towards her hostel building.With Numerous positive and negative thoughts striking in her mind,various waves of fear and joy arising in heart she somehow made it to her room 302.

               So the college life had finally started with studies going on in full rhythm.All round the college, students could be seen with bulky  books with words like Microprocessors, Principles of communication, Random theory and processes titles engraved on them in big letters.for Namita the people were new and so was Life and everything seemed to go fine until came the ,much awaited by every college starter,the freshers party.One can here imagine the freshers party of the ITS Engineering College as one of the most rocking and happening one and more about it...will be disclosed in the next part,till then Keep wondering what's so important that the next part only contains the attractions and happenings of the ITS's freshers party!

Monday, March 29, 2010

Without Even Letting You Know...!!!!

    I will always be there for you,
   Without even letting you know............

   I will always be by your side,
   even if I don't have anyone by my side,
   Without even letting you know............

   I will always help you in time of need,
   without even letting you know............

   I will cry still try,
   Always,to make you smile,
   Without even letting you know............

   I will always listen to you                                         
   Being a silent speaker,
   Without even letting you know............

   I will always share your problems,
   Hiding mine,
   Without even letting you know............

   At the end,
   I will ruin myself
   Without even letting you know............
   But I will always LOVE you
   And that's what
  Want you to know !!!

From My Heart.......... For My Heart... !

We both Love each other and want to be together,               
but destiny won't let it occur......
We both will Love each other and wish to be together,
But I guess Life hasn't planned it in that manner......

Then why to hate,fight or be angry with each other
And why not let me Love you forever???
Don't think how nice or awesome I am,
This just showcases how mean and selfish I am,
Because loving you makes me,
What really
I Am!

Sunday, March 28, 2010

To, My Almost Lover........!

I Love You,
Yes I do,
And don't know why I do!!!!

You don't Love me,
Yes I know,
And I don't even wanna know!!!!

I cared for you,                                                 
Yes I did,
But couldn't make you realize it!!!                   

You never wanted me,
I guess you didn't,
But I was too dumb to notice it!!!!

 I was happy with you ,                                               
Yes that's true,
But now that you are  gone,
You don't need to know 
How I am doing without you!!!!
Because now,
I know,
It doesn't makes a difference to you,
Just the way it always was,
Between me and you,
I not being I,
You always being You!!!!

Love You My Almost Lover!

Friday, March 5, 2010

Another Two States..!!!!

          What?Thinking this as another copy of CHETAN BHAGAT?No,the title might appear to you the same but the story is not and even the title is not!This blog story of mine is really an imaginative concept which I dedicate to a close friend of mine,might be real or imaginative..who knows!,who faced a similar consequence in her life which totally changed her attitude and reaction towards her own life,but now thankfully she is more happy than she was!This is gonna be in parts and some real thrill and fun mingled with words!

[The story will be updated only twice monthly,if my academic schedule allows me to do so,else only once for sure....and don't ya all think that even the writer needs time to imagine some real yet imaginative, freak but romantic situations! lol !!

                                           PART - 1

            Two states by Chetan Bhagat starts inside IIM,Ahemdabad with the author and his present wife as the main characters but this story starts with Namita,our main female character on one of the biggest turning point of a students life,joining an engineering college.Lacs of students prepare for engineering entrance exams to get into the brain factory of India,as called by some,IIT,Indian Institue Of Technology."You get into it and your life is made",is one of the most common statements to be heard by the bread winner,obviously I mean fathers, in every family and Namita was no exception!But getting into only seven such institutions is not so easy,we all know,unless you have got some extraordinary brian, hence after IIT she was expected to get an entry into atleast some NIIT,National Institue Of Technology!But destiny had planned something else for our not so lively and enthusiastic towardslife,presently, Namita and the college into which she got admitted to was a deemed university with a good reputation but not as that of the prior mentioned instituions for getting a bachelor's degree.

           Her dad ,a passout from one of the most reputated instituions,was not really happy about her calm decision of getting into that college but neither he had the courage to  go against the not so many principles of her daughter for getting a position in a college on her own capability and not just because of her dad's money power!The main female character might appear strong to some here but in reality how fragile she was from inside ,only she knew!The melodrama of emotions and her love for her parents ,going inside her were terrific enough to make her more gloomy on the thought that now she would have to leave her Home Sweet Home.Her college was however not so far from her home,only 60 Kms,still the little bird was afraid to fly away from her cosy, comfortable and safe nest but to gain her lost self she had decided to do so regardless of the forhtcoming depressed state,she knew she would be in.Days went by and she finally got the admission letter from her ITS Engineering College,Delhi and finally the day she was supposed to leave her home came flying.

          She was happy for herself but sad for her parents,felt joyful for the new life but gloomy to leave behind her childhood memories,rejoiced on the thought of the new life awaiting for her but cried for she was leaving her most precious valuables behind,her parents ,felt independent yet bounded by the accompanaying memories of her home,parents and the darkest deep secret of her's about which very few knew.All bags packed,books kept and things collected,Namita was all set to leave for her new voyage to an unknown land which was going to be her home for the next four years,where she will be transformed into an Engineer and would be given a chance to transform herself too!,if she manages to overpower her  current depressed state!

           "Namaita beta,today you are going to step into a new life ,where you will get things to distract you from the right path of getting good grades in your exams but make sure that you don't get distacted by them and act in a wiser and sophisticated manner to turn out into a good student as well as a good daughter",her father said while she sat crying besides her mother."Our daughter is quite big enough now to decide and react respectively so you don't need to worry, isn't it Namita.I know it's hard time for you but beta you got to be brave and I know you are and will be.Now comeon it's time for us to leave".Namaita left her room,her things,her home and her parents behind with a heavy heart and finally got into the car to her hostel,her parents were dropping her,being her first time to the new place.In not less than 2 hours they reached their destination.She started unloading her luggage all the while thinking why she thought of becoming an Engineer ,why she chose to study in a far off college and not some college in her own city,why she wanted to have freeedom which she got on the cost of staying away from her home and family but actions once done can't be undone and so was the case here with her.

         "Bye bye Meeta,(her nickname)take care and enjoy your life ahead and don't be upset, you are very close and can come home whenever you feel like, okay, and we will always keep in touch with you through calls",her mother said while all that her father had got to say was "Namita this is the real time for you to grow and prosper in life so don't let us and yourself down this time ".She knew how strong her father was from outside the more fragile he was from inside,he motivated in a bad, offensive way but the same was not with her mother,as we all know women love expressing what they feel like and hence we come to the part where a loving mother, all soaked in tears is giving her only daughter a love filled hug while the daughter is not letting her leave, she is being watched and told by her father to be strong and enjoy the new mysterious yet joyful,expected,life for which she and the family had been awaiting much!!!

           Ring...,ring...ring, ring..ring, ring...she answered the phone and made all atempts to open her heavy eye lids which were really tired after last night's long ragging session taken in the name of genereal interaction in the hostel of the fresher's by the senior students of second ,third and even fourth year!! Why is it that the seniors take ragging as their legimate right when a fresher's batch enter the university.Some students were not in a mood to just give up to the not so usual interaction session but fearing the adverse effects of it,Namita decided not to be the unsual one.She was raggegd by a fourth year senior..(her bad luck came along with the good luck !)..after the general querries about personal and academic details she was prompted to answer the question,"Are you single?".That was taken as a surprise by her because till now she had been taught, back at home, that nice obedient girls should wait or rather let their parents decide which man is good enough to hold the steering wheel of their life,hence she kept herself away from all such things and never cared much to guard and pomp her God gifted beauty!"Hello I am talking to you, where are you lost?",said the senior again giving her a strange stare this time."Ah..ah..yes mam I am single "."Okay so ever had been in a relation?",one more question popped from the same senior but with a giggle this time."Hmm..ah ,no mam"."Okay, I like your attitude,ambivert huh? OKay you may leave but do remember to wish your seniors whenever you see them alright?"."Okay mam I will follow that,Thank you",and hence Namita could finally breathe properly and she hurried upto her room because she didn't wanted to be a prey to some other senior's group for fun tonight!

        "Hello Namita beta ,are you alright?What made you so long to pick up the phone?Where were you?Is your health okay?",the tensed mother triggered all the bullets of her questions in one breath  which were enough to irritate her in the first but then remembering her loving mother's impatient nature calmy she replied,"Mamma I was sleeping,was busy mingling with other fellowmates last night so went to bed late and this is the only reason why I answered your call late"."Okay beta but you should hurry up now because it's already eight o' clock and you should be hurrying up else you will miss your breakfast as well as your first class".Namita,removing her cosy blanket ,said "OKay mamma as you say now, I will talk to you later okay?I got to leave now".Finally she got up from her bed ,opened her closet ,yeah not exactly a closet but just some shelves made into the wall and covered by two planks of hard wood to safeguard them from dust but you can always think of bad things in a good way to feel like being priviliged even if you aren't!That's the way of looking at life by our main female character!Namita was really an uncertain creature which existed in a very prominent way sometimes and can be lost in her own imaginary world the very next moment,she can be the most joyful spirit and the most depressed soul the very next second!Well ,getting back to Namita,dressed in a well ironed cotton purple suit with a white chudidar,hair neatly combed,was ready to leave for her first lecture.On the way from her room to the mess for the breakfast she saw some new faces and some recognizable faces which she had known last night only.On her way her mind was occupied by numerous thoughts,how is she gonna make friends here?,who is she gonna sit with?,what will be her first impression on her professors?,how is she gonna adjust in this new world?,will she be able to cope up with the strangers she is seeing now?,and finally the usual question,since she decided to join this college,why,just why did she decided to go for engineering course?She was just so happy back at home.

     With this we come to the end of our first part leaving the puzzled girl with numerous thoughts about her forthcoming life which was soon gonna be surprising and shocking for her,who knows!What life has got in store for her,she was unaware of that,but you all will get to know about it very soon!

Sunday, February 28, 2010

Hindi Or English?

          Hindi is our mother tongue, we know that but ever noticed what common language we all speak..?The answer is surprisingly English! Yes it is..!!Okay you don't believe me..Fine..But you will..after you finish reading this post!!

          India is a multilingual country with some 347 languages respectively.India is not so a big piece of land yet it's southern part is totally different from it's northern part and the same goes for it's eastern part and western part in terms of customs, religion followed, way of living and language spoken.Travel to any part of India and you will come to know the unity of the culturally diversified nation by the warm hosting spirit in every resident of the country but the sight of our mother tongue being neglected by it's people only leaves a gloomy impression on one's mind, atleast me! Ever thought what's the common language that you can communicate with throughout the nation? Ever noticed that it was English that made you communicate with a common man on the road or the cashier of a supermarket in the part of the nation other than where you belong to!

          A few days back I was travelling to Kolkata,the first business capital of the Britisher's in India, a city still intact with the scent of the culture and sophistication that Britisher's brought with them, when they first landed at Calicut. Bengali is the local language of the place, no wonder, but the language with which I was able to communicate with the locals in the streets and the market was..English and not Hindi !They all knew Hindi but not better than English.!! Surprised?? Don't be!! Because there is much more for you to know about the common language being spoken in India.

          Hindi is taught at the primary level in the schools along with the additional foreign language ,taken as mandatory language to be studied by every Indian,Ever thought why we are taught English and why not any other Indian language?Ofcourse sanskrit might be coming to your mind right now but still that too is taught till class eight ! or class tenth to be precise if you opt it for Hindi! Okay English is popular and spoken in most of the foreign countries but does that mean that we should keep our mother tongue at par? The article is not about scolding people for the usage of English but it's about why not use Hindi as the common language to communicate in the part of the world where it is respected as the national language!

          The article is not about abandoning the usage of English, it's about using Hindi equally with English. In the present society we all judge others by how fluently one can speak English, by the excellent vocabulary he/she possess and how able that person is when it comes to writing, but ever thought why Hindi is never considered from the same point of view? Why is it not that the high elite clas considers speaking Hindi a respected act rather than a taboo in their official and social gatherings. Why is that one has to be a good speaker in English no matter how much knowledge he holds for his mother tongue! Why is that one's perfection in English leads to judging one's family status,knowldge and sometimes even you oen status! I guess it's high time that we, the youth of the nation should pay attention in bringing back the lost glory, pride and respect of our mother tongue,Hindi, because as said by some political leader( forgive me for not remembering the name I am really bad at politics) "The power of the nation lies in the hands of the youth ".We can always have a command over any other language we feel like learning but at the cost of losing the knowledge of our mother tongue because that would be unfair, not only to the language, we were born to be proud of, but also to one's pride and dignity !

          It doesn't matter what's correct, What matters is what's right ! and I guess the right thing in the present scenario is to leave no stone unturned to return Hindi it's lost pride!


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