Your care indicted your liking, but never was it shown or spoken outloud! I was a fool, sitting down there to open my heart to the best friend or a back stabber, as I should call him now. You listen stories from people about their best friends. You listen to things they do, they share with their besties. I thought I too had one, while actuallly I was having only a liar, a cheater!
Reality is, you can never trust someone or to call someone a bestie, since no one in this world is strong enough to be unbiased on relations, things or decisions. All one seek is their personal interest in giving, suggesting or hinting you at anything. I though I was being driven in the correct direction but little did I know that you were the one becauase of whom I am crying today. You ruined my life.
Yes, my best friend ruined my life. Not only he killed the real but also the fake me! As now I cannot fake a smile on my face. All I think about are the tortures done to me.
The mental and physical pain. I shall never forgive him for!
Meeting you was the biggest mistake of my life. I was stupid to make a friend, search a bestie in you. As you were looking for, was another gossip girl!
But sorry sir, I can no longer stand this nature of yours and hence Dear Dairy, tomorrow I am going to end my friendship with him.
Reality is, you can never trust someone or to call someone a bestie, since no one in this world is strong enough to be unbiased on relations, things or decisions. All one seek is their personal interest in giving, suggesting or hinting you at anything. I though I was being driven in the correct direction but little did I know that you were the one becauase of whom I am crying today. You ruined my life.
Yes, my best friend ruined my life. Not only he killed the real but also the fake me! As now I cannot fake a smile on my face. All I think about are the tortures done to me.
The mental and physical pain. I shall never forgive him for!
Meeting you was the biggest mistake of my life. I was stupid to make a friend, search a bestie in you. As you were looking for, was another gossip girl!
But sorry sir, I can no longer stand this nature of yours and hence Dear Dairy, tomorrow I am going to end my friendship with him.
1 comment:
Dear Smita,
That's a very sad way of looking into life. The biggest mistake of your life is not taking responsibility for your own failures and set backs. People fail in friendships, relationships. People encounter bad people, everybody passes through different phases of life, sometimes we might be suffering, but there is always light at the end of the tunnel.
I think you are deeply hurt to the point,you are unable to realize that what you are undergoing is a common suffering shared by rest of the human kind. We all long for love, stability and reconciliation with our souls.
Please allow time to heal you and it will, I know this diary is a outlet for your emotions, but in this process of healing, rather than judging people for their flaws, please try to love them for what they are and hope that they might change to be better.
I think this will be the last time I will ever visit your webpage. As a well-wisher I just want you to know that the way you are mourning is not healthy. Please find better coping mechanism than this :)
Very Sincerely,
Aiken Drum
( the boy who lives on moon, whose is made of cheddar cheese)
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