Another Two States Part - 38

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"Hello".

"Hey, Hi Namita. When are you coming?",asked Tiya.

"Well, I will reach the hostel premises in few minutes",Namita sounded a bit disturbed.

"Okay. Come soon", Tiya ended the call but she clearly noticed the unrest in her voice.

Third year has finally begun. Tiya had already reached hostel while Namita was about to reach. They were in pre-final year now. From an engineering student's perspective it's the most crucial year. One is supposed to sit for the placement interviews, appear for the various exams like GATE, CAT etc etc. Your whole life after graduation is planned in third year. But Namita, like always, had some other  stuff occupying her mind.

Namita entered the room with a tiring look on her face, carrying her bag on one shoulder and dragging her suitcase behind her. She dropped onto her bed.
"Gosh, I am so tired", she lamented.

"Hey Namita. How have you been?", Tiya came.

They both hugged each other. Tiya was happy to see her old room-mate back but Namita seemed to be different.

 "What's wrong Namita? Everything Okay na?"
"You look so occupied by something else other than your journey tiredness. I hope..", and before our Talkative Tiya could utter one more word, Namita shouted,"Oh, Please Tiya. Fir God's sake shut up, will you?".
Now this kind of  behavior was shocking!
Never ever had the two had a fight on any thing and Tiya was surely taken back by this impudent reply of hers.

"Okay", she said shutting up and bending down her head as if arraigned for some crime not committed.

Namita wasn't somebody who would yell at Tiya or anybody else like this. Tiya was sure that some problem was making her irritated at everything. But she chose to be quiet. She knew, at the right moment, Namita would open all her secrets. One just need to give her some time. She started walking towards the door.

Back at her bed, Namita was feeling terrible .
"Hey Tiya", she said in an apologizing manner.
"I am sorry. I don't know what I was doing. I am so sorry yaar".

Tiya saw this coming. She turned to her quickly.
"It's okay Namita. I know you are not angry on me or something. But at-least tell me what's wrong. Maybe I can help you",said Tiya, pleading her to tell her her secrets.

"Tiya"

"Yes Namita"

"I am doing something whose reason I just can't explain to you! But I want your support in this all. Please help me", and she hid her face in her palms.

"I am your friend Namita. And what use are the friends who help their friends. But your point that you can't tell me the thing, does makes me concerned. Try me Namita."
"Not only I am good at keeping secrets but also I am as trustworthy as anyone else could be", said Tiya, sitting next to Namita. And she realized, Namita was sobbing. Trying to hide her tears from her by her palms.

"Namita..!",Tiya said,"Stop crying Namita. College is starting from tomorrow. You are a pre-final year student now. New life is just beginning for the year and you are so troubled."
"What's wrong Namita", she asked.

"Please Tiya. I need your help. I need you to keep this from everybody here that I am going from college for some-days. "

"Going? But where? You got to tell me first Namita. Then only I can help you out. Tell me what's the matter?", Tiya asked, impulsively. She wanted to help, but not without knowing what she was getting into.

"Okay, I will tell you but you need to help me keeping this from everyone, even my Mom Dad."

"What?", Tiya said surprisingly.
Namita had never kept any secrets from her parents, her mother especially.
"But Namita..."

"It's important that you keep from them that I am not in college. And also you need to tell people here that I am still at home while I would be gone...", and Namita continued with the details as to where and for how long she would be gone.

"Okay Namita, I get that. But at-least tell me whom are you going there for?"

Namita looked at her. Her lips wanting to spit out everything and release the burden on her heart. She kept looking at Tiya with the same expression for few minutes and then finally spoke", I am going to see my sister! ".

Tiya sat there. As amazed as one could be! Namita has a sister? Why was this never told to anyone before? Why nobody ever talked about her? Wasn't she been told as the only child of her parents since the beginning of the story? And now that we know that she has a sister, then why is she going to see her? Keeping it all a secret from everyone? Even from her parents? Why?
Third year of college has got a sparkling start, isn't it ;)

 

How Does It Feels ?

How does it feel,
to see me crying,
for you?
to see me annihilating myself,
in your love?


How does it feel,
to leave me behind,
all alone in agony ?
to shower love on someone else,
that was meant for me !

 
How does it feel,
to humiliate my soul,
shatter my love for you,
and never love me!


How does it feel,
to be a heart ripper,
and cast away with my heart beats!


How does it feel,                          
to see me broken,
by your egoistic allegations !


How does it feel,
to hurt me,
sucking joy out of my life.

How does it feel,           
tell me !
It must feel awesome,
I guess,
that's why
you do that all,
ruthlessly,
but still
so lovingly !

Another Two States Part - 37 (ii)

She opened the middle page of the diary and started reading.

           I can't bear it anymore. This hatred is killing me now. He doesn't talks to me. He ignores me as if I don't exist in this world. Am I supposed to be treated like this? Why does he do that to me? Why? He hates me. I can clearly see that in his eyes. I cry every night, but if only he could love me back the way he used to these dark nights won't matter.

          I am losing my patience with him now. He used to love me so much! I was the only person he cared about. Even a minute line of tension on my face made him cry. But now, he doesn't even cares to look whether I am doing fine or not. He just don't care! I don't know what I must do to revive all that love in him for me, that he had! But surely I can't keep this secret from him anymore. I don't know how to say it, but it is also killing me every second of my life. Wish I could tell him, that....

But before she could complete reading the page, she heard her coming.
Namita was coming. Tiya could hear her voice in the distant corridor. She quickly jumped from Namita's bed, hid the diary under the mattress and again started packing up her things. Pretending as if she had been doing that only since Namita left.

In less than two minutes, Namita was back in room. She looked happy.
"Rahul is a nice guy. I will really miss him after my B.Tech", she said.
She was in a jovial mood today.

Tiya just tried smiling from her place but her mind was all bogged with the diary details. She wanted to read more of it but couldn't. She thought of finding a way, to ask Namita about the diary. She knew Namita didn't keep secrets. But today the content she had just read, made her feel like as if something big was going in Namita's life and she had been hiding it from everyone, or atleast her.
She thought of pointing out the diary to Namita. Maybe this way she may get to know something about it.

"Hey, look. You have got something under there", Tiya pointed out the diary, intentionally.

Namita quickly picked it up and put it in her bag.
"Oh, thats just something. Nothing much". she tried covering it up. She clearly was hiding it from Tiya.
This made Tiya doubt her more now and she didn't say much. She knew Namita. She knew, she would open up it's details to her one day. She just had to wait for the right day to come.

[And so we come to the end of their second year of college. Second year did see a lot of progress in the story. Hope, will see much more in the third year.]

But wait, the diary detials are out. A bit.
Namita mentioned someone hating her !
She's being ignored and not loved while she dearly wishes to be loved by that person!
What secret is she hiding this time?
Is it about some other man in her life? Or was that all written for Samarth? Are they having a tensed relationship, that she had been hiding from everybody? Or is it something else? What could it be? What?

Another Two States Part - 37 (i)

 "Hurray, we are free now !", Tiya entered the room shouting. Today they had our last university exam and both were leaving for their home in the evening.

"Yea, it gives so much relaxed feeling that I can't tell you. With no more tension of books and notes for sometime now", Said Namita. She was already done packing. She had to meet Rahul before going. So was just hurrying up with her final things. She rolled on her bedding into half to pack it, just then her cell phone flashed with Rahul's number.

"Hey Rahul...Hmmm..Hmm..Okay.", and she hung him up.
"Hey, Tiya. Rahul is downstairs. I am going to meet him, you wanna come and say bye?", she asked Tiya.

Tiya very much wanted to, but then she decided not to. She hadn't told Namita about her liking for him, and she wasn't very sure if meeting up with him with her would be a good idea or not. Hence she decided to stay back.
"No, you go ahead. I will message him my bye as I have loads to pack with just few hours before I leave. You go".

"Okay, I will be back in few minutes. I just want to clear things about that evening. Also, he has a train to catch in few minutes. So I guess, he too would be hurrying up", saying so she left.
But she left something undone.
Her diary !

She was rolling her bedding when the call came, it was half done there on the bed, with her diary popping out from underneath the mattress!
Tiya saw it.
Namita was gone.
Tiya was all alone with that diary, looking out from under the mattress, tempting to be opened, to be read by her.
Tiya had never seen such a diary before. Never had Namita mentioned about any such diary. And neither had Tiya seen Namita writing or reading any such diary.

"What's that? A personal diary? Is it Namita's? She never told me about it but! And what is it doing in that murky place? Is something very personal written in there? Should I see? Should I read it?", numerous thoughts were going in her mind, and unknowingly she had started walking towards that diary!

Personal things, of others of-course, are more alluring than our very owns! And it's nothing to be embarrassed about, it's human nature. Tiya was also driven by such human instincts at the moment and she couldn't resist to see what the diary was about.

She quickly jumped to Namita's bed. Took out the diary from under the mattress. Looked for any titles on it's front and back, but found nothing. And then, she opened it! 
And starting reading!

Another Two States Part - 36 (ii)

   Second year was happening as it could be !
Starting with the known facts first, Namita enters engineering college and becomes friends with Tiya, also her room-mate. Later Tiya discovers in college's freshers party that Namita is in love with a South Indian guy, Samarth. He comes to visit Namita and this where she too gets a chance to meet him.

Then comes the details of some red diary and surfaces some issues about a bank account. Namita wants some fake details to be entered in her account passbook. This secret is yet to be revealed.

Then come into scene, Rahul and Vipsa. Namita was taking maths lessons from him but Samarth wasn't very approving of all this. Henceforth Samarth discloses, that Vipsa knew him from school time and she was the one who tried making rift between the two of them. Namita later resolves everything , unaware of the fact that Rahul had a soft corner for her. But then comes Tiya, she liked Rahul. At first, she thought that Namita too liked him but later she finds out that her real competition for Rahul's love was  with Vipsa actually.

 Would Namita and Samarth unite?, the way they had been planning? Will Samarth get to meet her family and make them agree them to their marriage? What about Samarth's parents? Will they accept Namita?
Will Tiya be able to tell Rahul that she loves him? Or will Vipsa try to curb this girls' love too?
And what secret is Namita writing her diary? What is she hiding? Why does she needs to fake her bank accounts summary?
To find out, keep reading :)

[ I might have forgot  mentioning soemthing, forgive me for that ;) Please feel free to leave it in the comments, if you have following the story :) ]