Conversations that never complete...Conversation you wish were complete !

‘Let’s play a game’

‘What game’

‘Game to pass time while we walk back home’

‘What you have in mind’

‘What is it that you like in a guy’

‘Like as in what, what do you mean’

‘Like as in what is it that you notice when you first see the guy’

‘Umm…’ It's ... she thought in her mind

“Tired ..?”

“Never..”, he said opening his shut eyes wide open.

“Okay. I can see that”, she caught him yawning with his mouth wide open.

A word or two and he was teased again.

“I am Audi of men”, finally he announced.
Boasting is something he never gets tired of.
"Are you", she wasn't surprised but this is not how she looks at him.
"Hell Yeah. Most fit and smart guy amongst all."
"Hmm...", That's true but .. she thought in her mind.

Being Muse !

Being a Muse

Is what he desires,

Hearing this from the Muse

Is how it inspires !

Centre piece of discussion

Highlight of the talk,

Every action being scrutinized

With each word spoken looked upon !

Knit words into posts

To speak for a personality,

Exposing the muse to reality

To the world as a noun !

It's not easy as it sounds

It may please or displease,

It will be how it appears

Reality at ease !

Preference

Why would somebody do that?
What thought is behind this action?
It's something that she's not used to!
A different treatment!

"Hmm...."
"After you..." and a hand gesture was made for her to go first on the staircase.

A step onto the stairs but a preference was given. Specifically she was asked to step first.
Something that doesn't happen to her everyday.
Not that she has not been with guys earlier and not that she hasn't been given a special treatment before.
But this was something that had never happened.

As small and insignificant this may seem but was not at that moment.

Men tend to have bigger egos than women. This is how they have been made. Women are easy to break but men are tough! It's hard for them to put someone else before them. But here he had her before her.

This might be not new for him but was new to her.
This might be something he does to every girl but no guy had done it yet for her.

"Don't do it. I am not used to such respect", came her reply.
"Don't do something which puts her in special treatment. Don't do something which you won't do forever. Hope such a day never comes", she though in her mind.

X--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------X

Coming back home from college, she was walking behind him.

He was to open the gate and she was to follow.

Gate was opened wide and was thrown back in sudden flash.

What happened took her by surprise!

"Is this the same person who used to ask her to go first or at-least take note that somebody is following", she thought.

Might have been an upset situation, might have been a tensed state of mind, might have been her doing something to piss him off. 

This wasn't imagined but this is what happened. And a happy moment was erased.

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This wasn't something on the list of expectations but it's hard to ignore it after making someone habitual of that. It takes time for people to forget about the special things but it happens and happens with a pinch of pain. Funny that people make you used to certain things that they start and when they stop doing that, you are the only one missing it being done!

The term called ... !

It comes in disguise but hurts like hell. When there is nobody for you to talk to. To open up, to share what you think or what you want to say! Complete silence becomes your companion. Only sound that you hear of is of trees rumbling outside your window. Scene of friends giggling at night, people going out in groups are other sources that makes you feel terrible even more when you miss the part of your life when you used to be that.

But yes, it's hard for anyone else to understand how this could be someone's part of life. As they have never faced it! For them being lonely is an alien feeling and not having people around to talk is a myth. Yes, it's up-to you to open up and talk to others but not every time you land with people. Sometime you land up alone with people!

Ever wondered how it feels like when you come home and you have no to talk to?
Whole day is gone and you never talked except on messaging apps?
One hour was the max time you were in actual human contact?

Longing loneliness is creepy and is sticks around to make one feel sick!
Sick with pain!
Sick with depression!

But it's hard for anyone else to understand and once you are in, there's a hard way of getting out of it!
But one who has been in such a situation would understand! You don't get friends, you make friends. But to make friends, people should be there!

You talk, you mingle but the other one is selfish enough to just use and throw you away!
Would you make friends with such people? Are these people even fit to be called friends?
Nobody asks for any friend to stick around 24*7, but it's nice to have someone by your side! And when the one you had expected would do so, ignores you, it kills!

But you won't understand
Neither do I expect you to understand it
Not anymore

The term called Loneliness !

But .... !

In low times, when she needed an ear
You were supposed to be by her side and listen what she has to say.
Not to react, not to support
but just listen to what she wants to express.
But you were not there!

Times when you were supposed to be neutral
and not mock her
You joined the other people laughing on her
This is how it all ended!

You are just one of the people
mocking her
making her feel even more low
shattering her trust to pieces
and
lowering her esteem at every moment
and then you ask
what did I do!

It's all Fading !

It was supposed to be fun!
We were supposed to work as a team and win this together!
Having fun and making it all more fun was how the course was assumed to be!
You completing me and me completing you was how it should have been!

Nothing is complete in this world.
Nobody can survive alone and without any support.

But see how we ended up!
Fighting and arguing on stuff which makes no sense!
Growing apart every single moment, distancing myself from you seems to be the only way out now to me!
For you just don't realize what you mean to me and what you did to me!
You lied and you have been lying to me since the moment I asked you the truth.
You broke the trust which I thought you would never brake!
But then it's my fault that I trusted my respect with you and not yours for this may have been the plan since the beginning and I was just stupid to fall for it!
Another Girl!
Didn't know this is how you looked at me!
For you were the only guy in my life I had allowed to this extent!

Everything is fading now!
I don't talk
I don't smile
I don't meet people
I don't eat
I don't work
I just don't live anymore!

I was supposed to be happy I have been happy and I hate at what I have become now and I hate more to see what I shall be if I will be this much aloof all the time. And I blame myself for all this, for trusting someone with the thought that we will be happy together, for believing that people can be trusted, for being stupid to follow you and love you till date eve after I know you never loved me!

Stupidity

How actually can you define stupidity!
What it means may be different to different people but at the end it is Stupidity after all so we don't have to be wise enough to make out or justify what that is stupidity what it is!

Leading a day without planning is stupidity! You have nothing to eat, you are unwilling to walk 0.5 miles for that but you can get ready in 5 minutes and go to some socialite event for enjoyment. That is stupidity! Coming back and then doing some adventure to get food - and then narrating the story to others as if some heroic act was performed - That is stupidity!
Trying to close eyes to the upcoming event to simply enjoy the pleasures - that is stupidity!

Not every time life needs to be planned! You were born as a human, a body with brain and the best orgns one mamal can have and not an animal! Think, plan and ction otherwise one day you will end up as a mess and nothing else!

You need to chill!
You need to relax!
We will figure something out!

You just cant live your life without thinking about how to face the at hand problem when you know it's there right in front of you. Not every time trouble will send you an invitation card to get ready for them but if something can be avoided, it should be! If you can avoid trouble for the next moment now then why to leave it to uncertainty!

What is intellectual and what is stupidity cannot be defined for scientists are yet to discover a measure to measure both. But certain things every human mind can interpret and be prepared for!

Till death do us part !

I hear your cries

Yes, I do

I see the pain and suffering

It makes me restless to see you faint like this

But I won't let you die!

I am gonna be there for you

For you have been my sole friend in this lone journey of sad life

Whenever I was in pain

you let me paint you

My anger you absorbed

without any fear

You let me by myself

with no fear of being ignored, misjudged and ill-treated

So how can I let you die alone

We will live together

We will die together!

That's a promise.

Till death do us part !

Life – Way it Happens !

“Last night mosquitoes didn’t let me sleep”, she complained to Sarika in he morning.


She laughed,”Good Morning. Iknew power failures will happen that’s why I had got mosquito coils for such times only”.

“How can one be so careful yaar!” Smriti exclaimed.

Sarika smiled and said,”Life”.







“Hmm”, and lines of worry were clearly visible on her forehead.

She took her phone and left the room.

“Hello, Papa”, she said.

“Yes beta, what happened? Is everything okay?’.

“Yes Papa, I just wanted to ask one thing”, she said.

“Go ahead”, he replied.

“I am filling my passport form, so what should I write in the column which says notable mark/scar on body?”.

Question was straight but answer was not.

“Hmm, is there anything you can write?”, came the reply after a pause.

“No Papa, I couldn’t find one”.

“No injuries no scars during childhood fights or never got hurt while playing?”



“I never had time for that Dad, since I was always looking after my sister or helping mother in house chores. So question of going out to play and get hurt is totally out of scene!”, she thought in her mind.



“No. Though I have a mole on my lips. I guess I can mention that!”, she replied.

“Hmm, go ahead with that”.



She came back to her friend and asked her to fill up that in the form.

“But how is it possible that you never got hurt ever till now!”, her friend asked!

Sarika smiled and said,”Life”.

Just like that - Smile !

“Oh God! Now why won’t you start!”, and she puffed.

With her palm on her forehead, she was waiting for HP QC (a testing tool) to open.

Suddenly a ping appeared at the bottom of the screen.

It was her friend Siddartha.

“Did your QC start working? Mine has started. So if you want, you can resume your work from my system”, the ping read.

“Yea ok”, saying so she locked her system and went to Siddartha’s system to work.

“Now how do I fill these mandatory fields ?”, she was confused for some fields in the tool.

“Let’s ping Vinay and ask for help”, he suggested.

“Okay”, she said and pinged Vinay using office’s communicator.

 

So technically it was Siddartha who was pinging Vinay but in real, it was Smita who was pinging him.

 

“Hey”, first line of the ping read.

“Hi”, Vinay replied.

“I need your help in filling the mandatory fields of the defect. Can you come to my system for a minute”, read the second line of the ping.

“Tell him that it’s you”, Siddartha said, just to avoid confusion for Vinay.

“Why, by seeing ping from you he won’t come?”, she said turning to Siddartha, “and by seing my name he will come huh?”, she joked and turned to the screen back and wrote in the ping,”Smita here”.

And the following conversation made both of them laugh for the next few minutes.

 

n  Siddartha :

“Hey”

n  Vinay :

“Hi”

n  Siddartha :

Can you come to my system for a minute”.

 

n  Vinay :

“No Dude”

n  Siddartha

“Smita here”

n  Vinay:

“Kinda Busy”

“Oh”

“Yea Smita tell me”

 

 

 

You’re The One, I Love

Each day spent with you

Is

A special one.

And

I want you

To know,

That just being close to you

Is

A wish come true !

I

would give you the world

if I could

the sun,

the moon

and all the stars ,too

 

But all I can give you

is

what’s mine to give

all my hopes,

all my dreams

all my love

all of myself.

Sweetheart

I love you

With all my heart.