Wednesday, August 31, 2011
Sunday, August 28, 2011
Friday, August 26, 2011
My story, CONSEQUENCES, has WON the 1st runner up position in The Monsoon Madness Contest at The Writer's Lounge.
I am so on cloud nine today !!
I am just out of words to thank the lovely Admins of TWL and the judges :)
Not to forget,I will be winning a NOVEL !!!
Yes, I am just so excited about it !!
Also, A big round of applause for the winner MAITHILI ,
PULKIT, who shares the 1st runner - up position with me
SHRUTI , admins choice award winner.
It's Party time !!
Thursday, August 25, 2011
Just another piece of crap?
Living out my life with no aim?
Just taking it the way it comes, going the way it wants me to.
With no thinking and no protest?
Guess I have lost all my senses.
I don't feel.
I don't wish
I don't speak
I don't live my life anymore.
I simply wake up every morning.
Do the things that I am told to do or am supposed to do, as decided by some creepy rules of our society.
I don't think what I do.
I don't actually do what I do.
I simply just do.
Whats all this?
What have I turned into?
I don't feel like meeting people, neither do I wanna meet my relatives or friends.
I don't wanna try something new in life. I just want it to go on and on, like some mere dull movie, with no twists and suspense's.
What's all this?
Have I lost my mind? Or have I just gone insane?
These ain't signs of a normal human being!
What's happening to me?
Am I depressed?
Or have I lost interest in life?
have I become
Just another piece of crap?
Saturday, August 20, 2011
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
Sunday, August 14, 2011
Saturday, August 13, 2011
“What do you want?”,she asked,sounding a bit irritated.
“You”,came the reply.
“That doesn’t gonna change what has happened between us”.
“Then tell me what I can do to change it”,he wanted her back,desperately now.
This was all she had been waiting to hear. She wanted to scream out her love for him
.Her heart pounded,skipped a beat and finally she gathered courage to speak,but words just won’t come.
He took it as a sign of her losing faith in his love.A sign misunderstood .
“I know I have been a jerk in your life. I have the capacity to hurt you and this is what made me run away from you.But trust me, every single second that I breathe,I remember you.”
She knew this all.She knew he loved her but just won’t admit and express it,a hard to understand soul he always has been.
“But trust me, this time I won’t leave you.Never ever. Just trust me and come back to me.I really really Love you.Please forgive me for all the past things that I have done to hurt and humiliate you.I am sorry”,he said sounding low now.
She had been waiting for this day and this very moment since the day they broke up.And now that all this was happening in real,she just couldn’t control her tears from showing up in her eyes.
But he thought she didn’t want him back again.He thought she was engaged with someone else.He took it as a sign telling him to back off as she had already moved on in life with some else.
He interpreted it as a sign that she wasn’t in love with him anymore and just didn’t want him back.But this was surely , a sign misunderstood.
She was crying.Dreams striking reality made her cry.
“Okay, I understand.I have no right to ask forgiveness for all the past deeds and obviously no right to ask for you and your love again.I am sorry that I called”,he hung up on her.
She stood dumbstruck.With the cell phone in her hands and frozen to death.She just lost what she thought was hers for life.Her silence was misinterpreted. But she couldn’t help correcting the sign misunderstood because the call log said the call was made by unknown caller,a Skype call with no number to dial back.
Monday, August 1, 2011
my present that's being affected
by decisions of my parents, my relatives and my friends
I don't even get a say in it.
They decide what I should do
they would be deciding
what I shall do.
Am I nobody?
Nobody to be cared of ?
Nobody to be paid enough attention,
To see whether I am happy and satiated by all the decisions that they have been taking?
Don't I get a say for my life, my present and my future?
Am I simply obliged to follow what they say,
Do as they say,
like some rules to be followed in a school.
I ain't a dead soul.
I too have a heart which gets hurt,
every-time I have to sacrifice my desires, my wishes.
I have a soul that gets impatient,
every-time I see people of similar age as that of mine, happier than me.
I cry every night, for what my life has become,
But I dot even get a say in that.
All I am supposed to do is,
react the way they want,
do what they feel like making me do
and obey all that they say.
They want me to be nice all the time.
Nice as a white swan can be.
And I am simply supposed to watch my life being ruined, in-front of me.
as if some trash being crushed under one's foot at the street.
I am simply watching my whole life become hell,
a place,hard to survive,
hard to breathe in.
I feel like shouting at the top of my voice,
telling them that they are wrong at times,
telling them, that the decisions they make for me, aren't always right,
I want to yell and beg for a normal life,
a peaceful life that has been snatched away from me ruthlessly.
But I know
whatsoever may happen
and whatsoever I may feel or think,
At the end,
I don't even get a say !