I don't even get a say !

It's my life, my carrier,
my present that's being affected
by decisions of my parents, my relatives and my friends
but
I don't even get a say in it.

They decide what I will do.
They decide what I should do
and definitely
they would be deciding
what I shall do.

Am I nobody?
Nobody to be cared of ?
Nobody to be paid enough attention,
To see whether I am happy and satiated by all the decisions that they have been taking?

Don't I get a say for my life, my present and my future?
Am I simply obliged to follow what they say,
Do as they say,
like some rules to be followed in a school.

I ain't a dead soul.
I too have a heart which gets hurt,
every-time I have to sacrifice my desires, my wishes.
I have a soul that gets impatient,
every-time I see people of similar age as that of mine, happier than me.

I cry every night, for what my life has become,
But I dot even get a say in that.
All I am supposed to do is,
react the way they want,
do what they feel like making me do
and obey all that they say.

They want me to be nice all the time.
Nice as a white swan can be.
And I am simply supposed to watch my life being ruined, in-front of me.
Being crushed,
as if some trash being crushed under one's foot at the street.

I am simply watching my whole life become hell,
a place,hard to survive,
hard to breathe in.
I feel like shouting at the top of my voice,
telling them that they are wrong at times,
telling them, that the decisions they make for me, aren't always right,
I want to yell and beg for a normal life,
a peaceful life that has been snatched away from me ruthlessly.

But I know
whatsoever may happen
and whatsoever I may feel or think,
At the end,
I don't even get a say !