Am crying

Tears have started to show up again.

I cried in the afternoon, after the monstrous fight I saw, and now I am crying again.

Soaked down in tears, what's the reason that's making me cry?

Do I even know it?

Do I exactly know the reason, that i am crying for?

Or is it just that I am filled with so much pain that I barely need a reason to cry!

Tears are your best friend. Yes they are.

They don't ever leave you alone. Ever.

They don't need an invitation.

And certainly they don't have that ego and attitude problem.

They just hold you whenever you are left alone by the world.

And always make their presence felt.

Whether you enjoy it or not !

To start crying in the middle of a holly-wood movie, at the sight that everything was fine happening in the picture, is the sign that I am going insane?

I was watching a happy movie, for god's sake.

Then why did you have to show up then, I asked my little best friend.

You might be watching a happy themed movie but you must remember that pains are real.

They are life.

Happy things are just for stories and movies and not for real. So to make you come back to reality, to get that real element alive in you, I come.

I come to remind you, the things that need your attention. I don't come on my please.

I come just to be with you. As I know, how alone, how hurt, how lonely you are.

Let me not leave you.

Because I know you don't worth my presence now, but surely will mark my absence.

 Is this all true?

Am I crying because I don't have those happy moments left in my life anymore?

I want to be happy so why cant I just  be happy?   

I too want to smile, laugh,

but all that I can tell you right now

is

that,

I am crying !