Once in a While

Once in a while

everybody needs praise

Praise in form of words

Praise in form of love

It need not be precious words

Just some nice words will do

It need not be an expensive gift

Just some time to spare will do

It need not be extravagant act

Just a tight hug will do

As once in a while

everybody needs praise

Muse - III

How can somebody
Notice everything about somebody

How can somebody
Track everything about somebody

How can somebody
Make a note of every move of somebody

How can somebody
Do things for somebody

How can somebody
Make an effort to make happy somebody

How can somebody
Take care like this of somebody

Muse - II

Strange thing
Unknown person texting
Yet he will reply

Be friends
and be friendly for a long while

Track status
Notice every activity
Making note of small details about someone
How can someone do this about someone.

Things you won't notice
Will be noticed by him
Things you won't say
Will be said by him

Appreciations from the Lost Soul

Day by day,
I keep watching,
You are growing,
And maturing,
As a blogger,
And as a writer.

Keep it up,
Open your emotions,

Pen your thoughts,

And best of luck,

For all endeavors in your life.

An appreciation,

To the fellow blogger,

To an unseen stranger,

From VP the Lost soul.

Conversations that never complete...Conversation you wish were complete !

‘Let’s play a game’

‘What game’

‘Game to pass time while we walk back home’

‘What you have in mind’

‘What is it that you like in a guy’

‘Like as in what, what do you mean’

‘Like as in what is it that you notice when you first see the guy’

‘Umm…’ It's ... she thought in her mind

“Tired ..?”

“Never..”, he said opening his shut eyes wide open.

“Okay. I can see that”, she caught him yawning with his mouth wide open.

A word or two and he was teased again.

“I am Audi of men”, finally he announced.
Boasting is something he never gets tired of.
"Are you", she wasn't surprised but this is not how she looks at him.
"Hell Yeah. Most fit and smart guy amongst all."
"Hmm...", That's true but .. she thought in her mind.

Muse - I

Height

First thing caught by the eyes

Smile

Head bowed down, eyes lowered, smile presented at it’s best sight

Humor

Kind and un-kind – mixed at the same time

Nature

Talkative – anything and everything being the syllabus

Knowledge

Full yet open to new sources

Wisdom

Not yet mature but certainly more than others of same age

Being Muse !

Being a Muse

Is what he desires,

Hearing this from the Muse

Is how it inspires !

Centre piece of discussion

Highlight of the talk,

Every action being scrutinized

With each word spoken looked upon !

Knit words into posts

To speak for a personality,

Exposing the muse to reality

To the world as a noun !

It's not easy as it sounds

It may please or displease,

It will be how it appears

Reality at ease !

Eyes see it all

One humid afternoon

You were spotted

Black shirt black trouser

Exploring the premises

Something tricked her

To look your way

Something was being planned

Real far away

This and that

And some chit chat

How Unknown became known

Is yet not known

Year passed

She flew away

Bidding goodbye

Never to come back again

Strange things happen

And they happened again

They were in same place

Yet unknown again

This is odd

Is all that you said

Where is this thing going

Is all that she thought

शरारत

कद ६ फुट १ इंच
सीना ५६ इंच
उम्र २६ साल ९५ दिन

इसको  छेड़ दूँ
उसको  छेड़ दूँ
पूरी दुनियां छेड़ दूँ  ।


आँखों में शरारत
दिल में बेचैनी
दिमाग सोच में
क्या कैसे किसको कब छेड़ू !

हर समय चलता एक विचार
किसको बनाऊ अगला शिकार
कौन है मेरा सानी यहाँ
एक ही हुआ है मुझसा यहाँ !


सबको हँसाने का है ज़िम्मा मेरा
सच बोलके या झूठ
कौन करे इसकी परवाह ।

कोई हँसता
और कोई रुठ जाता
कोशिश में इसकी
कभी कभी हू मैं  हार जाता ।


पर कोशिश नहीं छूटेगी
एक दिन ये दुनिया याद करेगी
वो जो हँसता भी था
और साथ में मारता भी था ।

YouTube is working !

Father: "So how much does it costs"

Daughter: "$770"

"Okay and how much is it in India"

"I tried looking in online and the closest model is around 60k INR but that of a low configuration. The exact model as this is not available with prices online. I will try to look for it in some store in some  mall."

"That’s okay. This is nice. I like it."

She smiled.

Mission Accomplished – she thought.

Mission to persuade him that $770 were well spent.

"So does it play songs. How is the sound quality?"

"Ofcourse Papa it does. It’s a $770 machine."

And there it was. Wide happy bubble of moment savaged

Click – type – type – www.youtube.com

YouTube main page displayed. Click the link of a song and boom!

Error occurred.

HP ENVY x360 m6 Convertible – couldn’t play a video because of a stupid bug due to an update.

** SIGH **

"Ofcourse it will play…  $770 machine" judgement was declared.

"$770 – yeah right!", no point in advocating anything now, she thought to herself.

P.S.: If you are facing the same problem, close all chrome sessions from task manager and restart the system. It Works!!!

From Beginning...Till End - The Chat II

Part II

I am ********

How did you get my number? (she had just got a new one and it wasn’t updated anywhere for anyone to find out)

I tried a lot to forget you but just couldn’t do and to see you in suit is something that made it more tough to forget you.

I really like you

And I am leaving the company. Today is my last working day here so I thought of messaging you 

everything before I go. I am D******* from Noi**

It’s really weird to talk like this. I know it’s weird for you too but there really was no other way to talk to you now that I am leaving. Another reason is that I never had the courage to talk to you upfront also.

Hmm…but tell me how did you get my number?

Via office communicator

But is it wrong to tell somebody their feeling especially when they are going away too far from that person

How did you get my name?

No it’s not wrong but the way you are handling it is wrong. Being honest is the most important thing.

One day in office when you were in cafeteria, your friend called you by your name and I was around following you as usual. There I got your name.

And why is it wrong. I like you from a year now and yes I am honest.

1 year, OMG, I don’t believe it.

Yeah, 1 year but I did not say anything. Had no courage to do so.

Okay

I knew you would take this all in the wrong way. But I like you so told everything.

No, I am not taking it in wrong way but if somebody is approaching like this so I don’t know!
Tell me who you are and how you know me. That’s all I wanna know

I told you the truth. I did a mistake by telling you all this.

No it’s not like that

Hmm..When I had the courage I did what I wanted to do. Don’t take me otherwise but I really like you and this can never go anywhere so this has to end here.Bye take care. Will never disturb you ever now.

From Beginning ... Till End - The Chat

Part I

Hi (He)

Hi (She)

Where are you

Who’s this

??

Somebody mad for you, where were you in bus today. Couldn’t see you

Bus?

Who’s this?

I am sorry that I am messaging you like this. But I really like you

??

Am working in ********* (same company as hers)

***** office (same office as hers)

I am ********

Don’t take me otherwise.

You have got very beautiful eyes

I watch you getting on and off the bus daily but never gathered enough courage to talk to you.

Watch me daily !!! Really

I want to see you daily but can’t. L

Have loads of work in office

Bye

Between you are really beautiful

Especially your eyes.

J Jokes apart, now tell me who’s this

I am ********

How did you get my number? (she had just got a new one and it wasn’t updated anywhere for anyone to find out)

Really tough job it was to find your number. I tried a lot to forget you but just couldn’t do and to see you in suit is something that made it more tough to forget you.

I really like you

From Beginning ... Till End !

Narrative story posts

How it started

What lead to what

Who was involved

How it all got evolved

Every story has an end
Every end also has a Beginning

Her part of the story she has meaning to tell

But no one ever asked

From Beginning ... Till End!

Feels like !

"Now you would have dated many girls", professor asked
He nodded.
"Okay", came the thought, startled by the nod.

"See...that's what am talking about....", and the class continued.

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"It was nice though it was alone, but that's okay. You cannot expect all the time to be with someone", she was thinking coming back from shopping.
It was dark already and she was tired.
Tired enough to look around or see who's doing what.
"Yeah, I like that place", were the voices coming from the couple seated in front of her.
From the attire one could easily tell they were going on a date.
"Yeah, I had been waiting for this evening.", pretty girl smiled.
"That's why I have been laying my a** off at work. So that I get one day off for someone", he was charming.
They continued to appreciate each other in their life and then joked about a thing or two. Next topic of discussion was some categorical humor.

Earphones were plugged in but she could tell.
She could tell that two souls were having a nice time.
Nice time that they have been waiting for for so long.
So long that now the world around them had ceased to exist.
To exist was only the other one.
Other one who was with them tonight.
Them tonight were to enjoy.
To enjoy and have fun of lifetime.

But what would she know
She knows not how it feels like
Felt like something missed
Missed forever from her part of life!

The end

"I am getting married"
She was listening.
"I met this girl and then I thought I am too tired to meet someone else after this. She is nice so why not settle down with her", he was excited.
She was listening.
"I want you to come to my wedding so plan your trip accordingly", he ordered.
And tears came rolling down her cheek.

She was his childhood crush.
She was his teenage crush.
She was and always been his crush.
They had been in different cities. He had dated many girls while she chose to date none.
Personal choice.
Choice for life.
They had never been secretive with each other.
A bond they shared without being in a relationship.
She knew she can trust him and he knew she can be relied on.

"Yeah, I will try", words were pushed out from her mouth.
"***** I want you to come"
"Yeah, send me a picture", she urged.
"I am going to take her for a night-out today. Have planned it to give her a surprise for I have been too busy for her this whole week due to office. And I will open a bottle of red wine with her, only for you"
"Yeah..enjoy. Okay I gotta go"
It was her birthday.
The day she lost him.

----------------------------------------------------

"Get down from your side and don't lock the door. I will get down from your side only"
"Why? There is so much space from your side"
"Na, there is some garbage down here so .."
"Oh Okay"
They were there to attend a marriage.
Few clicks, thoughts shared and they were back in the car.
"You look beautiful", he praised
"I know, thank you"
"This pink color really suits you. I didn't know you can look so pretty in traditional not that you are not pretty."
"I know I know", she chuckled.
He was flirting and all praises that night.
She has been trying to be at her best behavior not to offend her dear friend of class five.

They were back in car now.
"See on the side of your door"
A bouquet of red roses.
"Will you marry me?"
"****** please. We have talked about this. You deserve better than me. You know where I stand ..."
"Don't go. I will get it all settled"
"It's not that easy. It's not my choice. I am just following what my heart and stars are asking me to. I may fail and scared for that but I don't have any other choice now. Am stuck at all levels"
"I don't want to listen to all this. You have the most beautiful eyes I have seen since fifth grade. Most pretty smile I remember from our childhood days and never did I try to hide this from you"
"I know and this is why I am with you at 2 in night. I trust you and more than that I respect your honesty. Never did I deny about us being together but never did anything strikes to me about this as a future"
"Trust me for once"
"I do but... "
"Don't go"
"I have to"

zzzzzzzz

zzzz

zzzz

She turned to her left

He was in deep sleep

Huge, giant figure

Bulky body 

lying helpless

in blue cross check full sleeves

Eyes shut

Mouth wide open

Open arms

With snoring in process

Sleeping beauty is fiction

But there lied

Sleeping life

as non fiction

She looked and turned

Just to look again

Sleeping is contagious

And to see someone sleeping so close

Became disastrous

One of the moments

You had not thought of.

But one of the moments

You had dreamed of!

Eyes started becoming heavy

Laptop in front was now a thing of despise

Down went the screen next

Place for her to sleep was devised

Suddenly she was taken by her arm

Him calling her to sleep by his arm.

The look of his calling

Something to remember by

Were you looking out for her

Being fast asleep all the time?

Most thoughtful thing you did

Since we have landed in this new time!

... know ... what ... did !

I know what I did
I am already paying for it
It's hard to resist
Impossible to forget.

It wasn't how I had anticipated
It isn't how I had wished it to be
But now
it is what it is!

Most amazing feeling
This how I had imagined
With the most special person
This is how I had expected
Longing togetherness
This is how I had imagined
Forever and ever
This is how it should have been.

Now that it's done
Nothing can be changed
Whats done is done
It can't be changed!

Respect it
or turn your back on it
It's your choice
But forget about it
I really don't think that can be a choice.

I don't regret it
Neither do I hate it now
It's just how it is
And I have to live with it now!

I am strong enough to cherish it
And cherish what it was when it was
Frame those moments
Forever to be watched.

I respect it
And expect the same from you
For it being something to me
And nothing to you!

You were never there
It was just a boundation for you
For she was never cared for
But don't worry
As soon she may not be around!

Dreams are vague!

"I miss you"
"Yes, I miss you too"
"I can't believe it's been two years since I saw you
Seems like yesterday that you were gone", she replied.

"I know", she said.
I have been counting every second since I came back
Every second planning my next visit home
I know it's been two years now. she thought in the back of her mind.

It has been a long night.
Tiring and weary.
Drained out of energy
Quickly she went dreamy

It was all blurr
Chilly as hell
"Where are you going", said the voice
"Home", answered she!

What stops you
Why you cannot
No this is not right
Voices kept telling her

With a shrill
The dream was broken
She was home
But how, this was still unknown

She got out of bed
"Good morning, you feeling better now?, got greeted by her father
"Yeah but how did I...",she was puzzled.
"Last night you bought a one way ticket"
"A ticket to come home"

Apetite

An innocent look

Like that of a child

Planning a notorious act

In the back of his mind!

"I can't tell

I can't discuss

I am gonna be caught"

Are the various thoughts

"How do I say

How I execute it

But I have to

Let me calculate all possible ways"

She was still there

He still had it

Eyes playing hide and seek

There she got it

Dancing of the eyeballs made it quite clear

Mouth wanted to speak

But tongue had made it unclear

"Do you want some"

Were the words waiting to come out

She heard them anyway even when they weren't said aloud

"That's okay. You know about my small appetite."

So came the bright shine in his eyes

The meal was devoured with a wide smile!

Dreams are Stupid!

Table was laid

Mild wind with mild chills

Perfect evening for a candlelight dinner

With serene  peace instilled.

"Especially for you Mam"

Came a cake

Decorated with multicolored sprinklers

And a candle lighting up the bake.

What else could be more pleasing 

Than some undivided attention

Cheers to life

And the cutlery started clinking.

"It's nice to have you", she said.

"I am glad you said that", he replied.

Moments of endearment

No space for bereavement.

Tush!

Broke the dream!

She had dipped her finger in the fire of candle's beam

Cling, the meal check-in was posted online

Afterwards came in a message.

"You should have asked me."

"To hear another No and not come along?", came in the thought.

Dinner alone on the D-day

sounds stupid

But then

Dreams are stupid!